Trusting the Universe

Wednesday, December 2nd, 2015 7

I’m a big believer in the Universe and that everything is unfolding as it should. BUT. That sentiment is so incredibly challenging to hold on to when you feel like your life is a shitshow and everything appears as though it is falling apart. When the seams of your life are unravelling, it’s beyond hard to think, “Yup, this is right where I need to be. This is good. This is what I need.”

Yet, I realize I can’t trust in the Universe and believe that everything is unfolding as it should ONLY when life feels good and is matching my version of what I want it to be. That’s not what trust is. As difficult as this past year has been, and as much as I would have told you to “shut the fuck up” if you had uttered the words to me that life is unfolding as it should, I am actually coming around. I’m beginning to see that, yes, there were some very good reasons my life needed to blow up. Among the darkness and pain of 2015, so much beauty has shown up. The Love Campaign would never have been born. My heart wouldn’t have broken open. Love wouldn’t have been able to pour out of those cracks and flood to the people dear to me. Nor would love have been able to come in, be received, flood my heart. I wouldn’t have seen so many dear friends from across the continent (thank you, Melissa​, Corinna​, Hillary​, Tracy​, Andy, Josh​, Cherish​). And I know, I trust, there are so many more amazing and beautiful things unfolding that I’m not even aware of yet.

Buddha_rsSo, yeah. Let me hold on to this moment. This knowing that in what feels “bad” and what feels shattering at the time (and for quite awhile after) is likely creating space for so much more of what I need.

Big love to you all. xoxo

7 Responses

  1. Corinna says:

    Love you, girl.

  2. I am right there with you on 2015 being a Sh*t show. It’s been a brutal year. Here’s to 2016 being so much better. May it be everything that more than makes up for 2015.

  3. Linda says:

    Read your lovely article in Somerset Life. Prayed that you come to know the real Jesus, the true Creator of the universe. “For in Him all things were created; things in heaven and on earth, visiblr and invisible, whether thrones or rulers or powers or authorities, and things have been created for Him and through Him.” Blessings in your search for truth.

  4. Kathee says:

    Yes 2015 has been the hardest year for me to date, divorce, father with cancer, niece loosing her baby one on top of another, but through all that, through the love of family, friends, and myself I am finding my way and you will too. December is a tough month for me his birthday, Christmas, and what would have been our anniversary on the 30th. It will be turned into my day of celebration for making it through all of this with my heart healing and finding new friends. Trusting that everything did happen for a reason, for better things to come for you and for me as well. I can’t wait to open the new chapter for 2016, resolving to be me. Merry Christmas and the best New Year filled with love for us, the strong,the courageous, the givers, and the receivers to so many new possiblities. I will fill the new year with photographs, humor, smiles, love, memories and most important pictures of me. Thank you for your beautiful work and words.

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