Category : B&W

My life feels upside down. Everything about it feels disorienting. What I thought was (true) North, is suddenly not. I feel my emotions with enormous intensity, yet I feel somehow outside myself, watching me and the world around as if from above. I’m not sure what is ground. I can’t find my footing.

reflection_rsI’m fumbling to find my way. I don’t have perspective. The only thing I know to tell myself is to keep going. Keep going.


Wednesday, January 28th, 2015 10
Posted in: B&W, Film, Nature, SOOC, Swirling

I’ve still got love on the brain. It’s on my lips. In my heart. It’s swirling through the very core of me. I’m channeling absolutely all the love I can muster right now. Embracing love as a practice. I’m sending out all the love I have ever felt, in one singular direction. Daily. Hourly. Actually, breath by breath. It is all I can think to do.

Dried-Rose_rsI believe this love matters. I believe that love is the path. I want need to believe. So this is my practice. xoxo


Tuesday, January 20th, 2015 14
Posted in: B&W, Film, Refocus, SOOC, Swirling

Amidst the recent swirling, I’ve been reflecting on my one word for the year. Secure. Not only is this my word for the year, it is one of my core desired feelings. It is how I want to feel, what I want to manifest, and the place from which I want my life to spring forth. This word has been a guidepost for me this year. When I can’t see the forest for the trees, when I’m in the thick of the swirling, I reach for it time and time again.

selfportrait_rsI have often looked to others for this feeling. Wanting to be seen, heard, held by another to feel secure. And as much as I need the love and support of others — as much as we all do — I’ve been reminded recently that this feeling, this desire, has to come from within. That at the end of the day, I’m searching for my own internal place to rest in all that secure embodies.

Then, as I was driving home from the grocery yesterday, an old favorite Indigo Girls song “randomly” came on…

“Secure yourself to heaven.
Hold on tight, the night has come.
Fasten up your earthly burdens,
You have just begun.”

That’s right. This journey, in so many ways, is in its tender dawn. I have just begun. And that sense of trust, feeling rooted and secure, will come. It will come.


Monday, November 10th, 2014 7

Barcelona-Clothespins_rsAmidst the colors and the vibrancy of Barcelona, I found some stolen quiet moments. In a three-week traveling adventure, and in the everyday routine, a space of calm and solitude is welcome.

Barcelona-Laundry_rsShhh…

Both images shot using my Canon AE-1 camera on Tri-X 400 film, scanned by Indie Film Lab


Monday, October 13th, 2014 0
Posted in: B&W, Canon AE-1, Film, Travel

I’m still playing catch-up here at Life Refocused, working my way through our summer adventures to share with you. A few short days after returning from the Tribe retreat, Tony and I headed off to Spain and France for three weeks! I had been accepted to present my research at a conference in Paris, and as we had just been to the City of Light in 2012, we were very excited to return to one of our favorite cities on the planet. My motto is if you’re going to travel that far and spend that much money to get there, you may as well stay for as long as you can and get the most bang for your proverbial Euro. That’s where Spain came in.

We flew into Madrid, but only spent 24 hours there before heading south to Sevilla. I won’t even go into the massive debacle that unfolded for our traveling companions. Suffice it to say, your passport actually expires, for all intents and purposes, six months PRIOR to the printed expiration date. Given the distractions of how to get our friend’s passport issues sorted and agonizing about how this would effect our travel plans, very few photos got taken in Madrid. Thankfully, the passport dilemma got solved with help from the literal powers that be, our friend arrived in Madrid with only 24 hours delay, and off to Sevilla we went.

I have many friends who have traveled to Sevilla, and all of them simply rave about this town. Having never been there myself, I was very much looking forward to seeing what all the hype was about. It is a charming place, particularly the old town which is where we spent our three days.

We visited the Alcázar of Seville, where I found one of the loveliest sitting spots…

Seville Bench_rs

and on to the famous and immense Plaza de España…

Plaza Espana_rsAs recommended by the New York Times, La Azotea was our favorite dinner spot…

Tony Mike Azotea_rsIt’s a small space, but we quickly befriended everyone at the bar and enjoyed a bottle of wine and olives as we waited for a table…

Wine-Bottle-Azotea_rsAnd chef/owner Juan Antonio Gómez made us feel welcome in addition to serving us incredible food…

Azotea Chef_rsLast, the beauty of the city isn’t just captured on film…

Woman Sketching_Seville_rsOur time in Sevilla was a great kick-off to the trip. Next up, Barcelona.

All images shot using my Canon AE-1 camera on Tri-X 400 film, scanned by Indie Film Lab. As always, you can click on each image to see a larger format.


Monday, September 15th, 2014 2
Posted in: B&W, Canon AE-1, Film, Travel