Fidelity to the Self
This is me, right before my birthday party kicked off this past weekend. I love this photograph for so many reasons. I love the bowling shoes — they scream vintage fun to me. I love my striped socks and how they look with said bowling shoes. I love that I’m sitting on the lane to take the photo I imagined in my mind, not caring if others around me think I’m being weird. And, I love that this photograph captures a moment in which I listened to the whispers of my heart, those longings that want to PLAY, and threw myself a bowling party to ring in 40!
I’m learning that one of the greatest gifts of growing older is the settling in to authenticity. I recently read a definition of self-confidence by Michael Mahoney in which he first discusses the Latin root of confidence as confidere which means “fidelity.” Thus, self-confidence is a fidelity to the self. Having self-confidence is holding a faithfulness to one’s Self, being loyal and true to who you are. I don’t think gifts get better than that — to feel more and more like the person I have always wanted to be. To wear striped socks and bowling shoes, to throw myself a “kid party,” to play and paint and take photographs. To have the self-confidence, the fidelity to mySelf, to be exactly who I am. These are birthday presents I’m treasuring.
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